The Brontës - Aflevering 14: Blijvende fascinatie
wo 12 sep. - 10:52
Dat blijkt al uit een opstel dat ze voor haar leraar Monsieur Heger schreef, toen ze hier in Brussel in een pensionaat zat.
Throughout all my youth the difference which existed between me and most of the people who surrounded me, was an embarrassing enigma to me which I did not know how to resolve; I thought myself inferior to everyone and it distressed me. I thought it my duty to follow the example set by the majority of my acquaintances, an example sanctioned by the approbation of prudent and legitimate mediocrity and yet I felt myself incapable of as that majority felt and behaved… there was always excess in what I did; I was either too excited or despondent; without wanting too I allowed everything that passed through my heart to be seen and sometimes there were storms passing through it; in vain I tried to imitate the sweet gaiety, the serene and equable spirits which I saw in the faces of my companions and which I found so worthy of admiration; all my efforts were useless; I could not restrain the ebb and flow in my arteries and that ebb and flow always showed itself in my face and in my hard and unattractive features. I wept in secret.
(uit een van de opstellen die Charlotte Brontë in opdracht van Monsieur Heger schreef)
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